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10.12 Quiet

January 21, 2011

It’s been quiet around here lately.

Not the good quiet,

but the mind-numbing-annoying-playing-too-much-of-a-video-game-I-like-but don’t-really-want-to-play-now type of quiet.

and the I-can’t-get-to-the-computer-to-do-my-own-thing type of quiet.

and the I-really-can’t-stand-myself type of quiet.

and the I-finally-went-home-for-christmas-so-I-was-actually-away-from-the-computer type of quiet.

and the I-was-disapointed-by-the-state-of-the-family-house type of quiet.

and the I-am-feeling-smothered-by-someone-who-wants-my-full-attention-at-home type of quiet.

and the I-keep-feeling-like-I-am-stuck type of quiet.

and the I-keep-thinking-I-have-failed-consistently type of quiet.

and the people-keep-noticing-and-telling-me-the-things-they-don’t like-about my-speech/laugh type of quiet.

and the I-keep-thinking-of-my-mom-passing-away-because-of-her-birthday-and-deathday-being-so-close-to-now type of quiet.

and the I-haven’t-even-sewed-lately-to-help-preserve-my-sanity type of quiet.

Thank goodness, yesterday, I felt better, a little more loud.  Today, a tiny bit more.

Lately, I’ve been in a (metaphorical) library and I haven’t even found any good books to read here.

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