29.2 Making some DecisionsJanuary 10, 2013
It’s the new year and many many people are posting their goals, their choice to not work on goals, their projects for the year, the BOMs they’re signing up for, etc …..
Everything this time of year renewal, reinvigorate, re-energized, ready to go.
Me, I’m not so ready right now.
I think I need to step back and make some decisions. Perhaps it’s also time for me to plan too.
Decide what I want to do from here on.
Of course, I will quilt. I am not quitting that. And I will show pictures of my quilts. This I like, it inspires me, and I hope it makes you happy too.
But, I think there may be some other decisions about my time that I have to make. Mainly about my podcast.
I share the following decisions with you to outline my thought process. This is mostly brain-dump type of decisions done in a brainstorming sort of way. Nothing is required of you the reader at this time except to sit and observe where I am at at this time.
- Where do I want to take the podcast this year?
- How do I motivate myself to “stay on schedule”with it?
- If I enjoy doing it so much, why is it taking me so long to work on one single episode?
- Why can’t I ‘suddenly switch topics’ once I have started thinking about one topic to podcast about?
- Why do I periodically “stop” podcasting at times?
- Is there something deeper going on that is keeping me from talking to you?
- Can I even stand to be on the internets when people can chose to like me, not like me, people can chose to consistently promote other podcasts over my podcasts?
- Is it actually ‘doing anyone any good’ for me to spend all this time and effort and worry about not being good or getting things about a topic that doesn’t seem to completely interest people?
- Does it help anyone to hear my opinion on things?
- Do I butt into too many other conversations with my own opinions and that has turned people off of me?
- Or have I fallen into the same as many people’s podcast of: this is what I’m working on this week/month cycle? Do I even want to do a podcast if that’s what I am working on?
- Should I go back to thinking about highlighting other people’s science-y topics?
- Should I even worry or think about any of this?
- Am I letting fear stop me?
- Why can I show all about all my quilts all the time, but when I also produce and create a podcast, why does it seem that much more personal to me if people don’t like it? Both are art forms of different kinds, so why can’t I mirror how I feel about my quilts with how I feel about my podcast?
- Should I go back to reading blogs again to “keep up with everyone”? Cuz I rarely know what’s going on otherwise.
- Deep down: why do I actually podcast? Is it for the reasons spelled out in my first posts / on my about page? Is it truly about helping people or is it just an ‘attention seeking device’ that I’ve been using for a long time?
- Do I care more for ‘the community’ of podcasting than actually producing episodes?
- Will I be able to stay a part of the community if I fail to regularly podcast?
- What do I want to do with / show people that come to my blog? What do I want them to do?
- Should I reorganize some of my posts into ‘tutorials’ since they are pretty much that way anyway?
- Should I break off the personal stuff all together and explicitly only do ‘topics’ on my podcasts to help them seem less personal to me, and therefore easier for me to handle when people don’t like my podcast?
- Why do I keep thinking that if people don’t like my work (my podcast) then they don’t like ME? And how can I take steps to separate my podcast from “me”?
- Can I be satisfied with being the 16th out of 16 quilting podcasts? Do I need to be “in the top 5” all the time? Top 10?
- What do I hope to gain with podcasting? If I reach that goal, can I be happy with it even if my podcast isn’t mentioned?
- If I podcasted regularly, would I end up doing more for my podcast than anything? Would it help or hurt?
- Would I be able to come up with adequate topics if I started podcasting more regularly? Or would it lead to burnout / wear me out?
- Is the sound of my voice “THAT BAD” that people don’t like my podcast because of it? If so, can I change my speech patterns? Should I work on my diction more? (Siri doesn’t like my voice, this I know for sure)
- Are the breathing noises “THAT BAD” that is what people don’t like in my podcast?
- How can I move away from sounding like Eeyore in every podcast? “woah is me … no one likes me anyway” … is this what people don’t like? … the rambling? the moving away from topics and sometimes not finishing them? If so, how do I prevent doing this?